I wake up in sweat
My heart it pounds
I can’t catch my breath
The dark surrounds
I am in my bed
With memory gone
I did it again
The same old song
That well known taste
Between my lips
It took me again
With strength it grips
My mind is racing
And my throat, it burns
Despite all of pain
No lessons I’ve learned
I don’t know what I did
I don’t know what I said
The panic is set
This part I dread
I’ll say this is it
Never again
A lie I’ve told myself
Since it began
It traps me within
All the places I hide
All the pain and shame
That I keep deep inside
I’ll cry and beg
To please let me go
Locked in a shell of someone
I no longer know
I’ll claw my way out
Until I see light
I can’t lose this battle
Daily I’ll fight
As my mind starts to quiet
I’m starting to see
The only one who can save me
Is me
By Contributor S. Cook
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