Who have I become

in the absence

of superficial desires

and the presence of a meaningful life?

Once God finds you,

you can never lose Him,

yet can daily lose yourself.

I imagined fulfillment

producing more serotonin;

vibrant, intoxicating,

not a brightly colored Grey.

I have always known that love is

more than just a feeling,

but now I can’t feel it.

I am a Good person,

I am humble,

And I am afraid.

By Contributor: Andrew Littlefield

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