In the last UnPolished, I asked you to think about what makes you feel alive. Not what makes you productive or successful or a better version of yourself, but what actually makes your life feel bigger.
I’ve been thinking about what comes after that.
Because noticing is one thing. Following it is another.
When we stop drinking, I think there’s sometimes an expectation that we’re going to discover this whole new version of ourselves. We’ve done this enormous thing. We’ve removed alcohol from our lives. Surely there should be some grand revelation waiting for us on the other side.
This is who I am now. This is what I want. This is what comes next.
But maybe it doesn’t happen that way.
For a long time, drinking — and all the numbing that can come along with it — can disconnect us from the tiny signals that tell us what we like, what we want, what we’re curious about, what we’re drawn toward. And when the numbing is gone, those signals don’t necessarily come roaring back. Sometimes they’re barely a whisper, and if you’re not paying attention you might miss them completely.
We think:
That looks interesting.
I’d like to try that.
I wonder what would happen if…
And then, almost immediately, we evaluate it.
Do I have time? How much does it cost? Am I too old? Would I be any good at it? Who would I go with? Is this really me? What would be the point?
We can kill a spark remarkably quickly.
But what if we didn’t?
What catches your attention, and what happens when you move toward it instead of immediately evaluating it?
Maybe rebuilding a life happens through a hundred tiny acts of curiosity.
You try the thing. You hate it. Fine. You try something else. You love it. You follow that for a while. It introduces you to a person who tells you about something else. You go there. Something opens. And then something else opens.
Maybe this is how we find ourselves again. Not by sitting down and figuring out exactly who we’re supposed to be now, but by participating in our own lives.
Curiosity doesn’t require a five-year plan. It doesn’t even require the thing you try to become important.
You don’t have to turn pottery into an Etsy shop. You don’t have to become a serious cyclist because you bought a bike. You don’t have to be good at painting because you like putting paint on paper. You don’t have to justify why you suddenly want to learn about birds or take the bus across town or go to a concert by yourself.
You can just be curious. I think there’s something incredibly freeing about that.
We spend so much of our lives looking for certainty before we’re willing to move. We want to know that something will be worth our time before we give it any. We want to know where the road leads before we take the first turn.
But curiosity asks something much smaller of us.
Go look.
See what happens.
Maybe nothing does. Or maybe that tiny spark leads to another one, and another one, and one day you look around and realize your life has gotten bigger. Not because you’ve figured it all out. But, because you followed the thing, that made you want to know more.
UNPOLISHED PRACTICE: Follow the Spark
Set a timer for five minutes and start with:
Lately, I’ve been curious about…
Keep going. Nothing is too small, weird, impractical, frivolous, or random to make the list. Don’t decide whether you have the time, money, talent, experience, or right personality for any of it.
When the timer goes off, read through your list.
What catches your attention?
Circle it.
And then do one small thing that moves you toward it.
Look up the class. Get the library book. Put air in the bike tires. Text the person. Buy the ridiculous paint color. Take the different route home. Go find out what that weird building is that you always pass.
You don’t need to make a plan.
The practice is responding to your own curiosity.
You don’t need to know where the spark is leading. And that’s the whole point. Follow it far enough to find out. Then when you feel you’ve followed it far enough, find a new spark.
LIFESTYLE: A Bigger Life, Not a Better Self | Unpolished with Krysty Krywko
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