Fear didn’t think that I would show up today,
But I did, and I’m here
Hate thought I’d relate, but it’s the energy of love in which I resonate
Anger tried to linger, but I sought out my peace
Self doubt came about
So I had to heal, let go, release
Impatience tried to rush me,
I spitefully decided to take my time
Insecurity tried to break in
So I had to reinforce my mind
Trauma tried to hide in the shadows
Til’ I decided to shed light on my past
Uncertainty said to freeze,
But my will and my confidence brought me back
Depression said to lay down because
And I quote, “You know you can’t do better”
Anxiety had me all stirred up because
And I quote, “You should’ve known better”
And I do
So I decided that it was to myself that I would remain true
Genuine, authentic, limitless and free
I decided that all those negative emotions weren’t me
I decided to believe that I was worthy indeed
That I was all that I need
No longer in need of other’s approval
When it was my own reflection that I failed to see
From hazy to clear
I decided I’m here
Unapologetically, sincerely
ME.
Contributor: Monique Olivia
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